Spinning

Emotions running wild

Can't seem to reign 'em in

My mind can't contain

Decisions to be made

So I leave them in Your hands

No faith in my own way

Can't you give me a sign

Just need to know You

Hear my prayers

Hear my prayers

Finally in Your silence

I hear you

Clearly screaming

That long ago You said enough

When will I have ears to hear?

See no beam of light

But know You're still there

Security won't be found

Within my mind's will

Love's like gravity

Pulls me to simplicity

That's when I have no doubt

Knowing You have

Heard my prayers

Heard my prayers

These were lyrics recently written during a very lonely time in my life. It's funny how we can sometimes be incredibly close in proximity to people yet still feel miles away from them. However, we have to KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is forever faithful. It's kinda like if you spin around and around and around and around...you get the point...but have a constant place on a wall or just in the environment around you that you purposefully look at every time you spin around to that same spot. If you keep looking at that same place every time, you don't get as dizzy when you stop spinning. God is like the constant. When life and all the emotions involved with it have you endlessly spinning, we have to keep our eyes focused on the constant, because no matter what our emotions tell us, His promises are never empty and never return void. Once we stand on the Word of God and truly believe it, not just know it but believe it, we no longer feel alone. It's as though He allows us to feel so far away for a time so we can understand what it feels like to be hopeless. And then remember what it feels like to be excited to run back to Him.