No Time

This week has been hectic. Exams and work have taken up all of my time, which sucks, because there are so many more things that I could find to enjoyably spend my time on. Take this time right now, for instance. I absolutely NEED to be studying for my history final at 9am tomorrow morning. What am I doing? I'm finding something more enjoyable to spend my time on...blogging. I know that busyness is most definitely not of God. It feels like I have had no time to spend with Him this week like I normally would, and it's all because I feel so pressured to do everything else before I spend time with Him. Not okay. It's so strange to me that even when I know that if I put Him first every day my entire day will be better overall and everything I need will be done, I still seem to spend so much of my time pursuing other things that at the time feel so important. God does not need to be just another part of our lives. He needs to BE our lives. He needs to consume every bit of us until we are gone, and all that is left if Him. That's what I want to happen in my life. I say that with all sincerity, but when will the day come when I will actually allow that to happen? When I will put everything else aside in the midst of the busyness that I let consume me, just to let Him consume me. I really like these lines from a worship song I heard at Morningstar Fellowship in Fort Mill, SC: "I fall on my face, just so I can find a place to stand." -This is what I feel like I am doing right now. I feel at a loss, so I am giving up the place I thought I had so that I can find a place to stand with Him.